After Judah marries Shua, the Canaanite woman, he has three sons with her: Er, Onan, and Shelah. Judah is more or less an absentee father. When Shelah is born, Judah isn’t even in the same city. Judah’s first son, Er, marries a woman named Tamar. Apparently Er was so unbelievably wicked that God puts him to death. According to the customs of the Ancient Near East, it is the responsibility of Onan, Judah’s second son, to marry Tamar and try to have a son with her to carry on Er’s line. A son would also support the widow as she ages.
Onan does not care about Er or Tamar. So he uses Tamar for sex but is very careful to not get her pregnant. The Lord responds to this wickedness as well and puts Onan to death too. So now Judah has one son left. In Genesis 38:11, Judah blames Tamar for the deaths of his sons. He seems to be blind to their wickedness, or perhaps he doesn’t care. So Judah lies to Tamar. He does not intend to give her his third and final son and he sends her back to her father’s home. After losing her first husband and being sexually abused by the second, Tamar is thrown out by Judah. She is unloved, abused, and rejected by Judah and his sons.
Children often resemble their parents and more than just in physical appearance. My son is like me. He likes books and he cannot see or hear anything when the TV is on. My daughters are like my wife, talkative and full of personality. Now even though Judah hates his father, he becomes just like him. Jacob was a liar and a sad excuse for a father and Judah becomes the same. Jacob rejects those he is meant to love and is willing to hurt and sacrifice others to protect his favorites and Judah does the same.
Tamar realizes that Judah is a liar. So she veils her face and meets him on the road. Judah thinks she is a prostitute and gives her his signet, cord, and staff as a pledge to send her payment later. Tamar becomes pregnant from the encounter and when Judah is told, he calls for her to brought out and burned alive (Genesis 38:24). Suddenly he has become intensely passionate about holiness. But as Tamar is being led to her death, she shows Judah his own signet, cord, and staff. And when he realizes that she was the woman on the road, he says “She is more righteous than I, since I did not give her to my son Shelah.”
Listen to what Judah is saying. He declares, “I deserve to die by fire, not her.” Judah is not only comparing Tamar’s sin with his own. He is realizing, perhaps for the first time, the depth of his own sin. He is no better than Jacob. Judah has spent his entire life blaming Jacob and making excuses for his own betrayals and wickedness. He believed it was Jacob’s fault that he turned out this way. That Joseph deserved what he got. That Tamar is cursed so he has to protect Shelah from her.
But now, he says enough. No more anger. No more excuses. No more lies. Judah is tired of his hatred and he wants to be free. He is sick of the cycle of lying and using people. He wants to learn to forgive and be made new. And the Lord responds. He forgives Judah. He restores him. He heals him. Judah, not Reuben or Benjamin or Levi or even Joseph, is the Christ figure in Genesis. He is the one willing to lay down his life for another. Judah is set free. Judah is made new.
In this world, families are far from perfect. Nearly everyone has experienced some form of rejection from the people who are supposed to love them the most. Some of us have experienced unspeakable pain that refuses to leave us. We might try to ignore it, deny it, or assert control over it through anger and self-righteousness, but this only leads to even more death. But there is hope in Jesus Christ.
May we grow so weary of the cycles of sin and suffering, anger and despair that get passed down generation after generation that we turn to the Lord to make all things new. For He will hear and respond.